"WHITE LANDS OF EMPATHICA"
The end.
The songwriter's dead.
The blade fell upon him
Taking him to the white lands
Of Empathica
Of Innocence
Empathica
Innocence

"HOME"
The dreamer and the wine
Poet without a rhyme
A widowed writer torn apart by chains of hell

One last perfect verse
Is still the same old song
Oh Christ how I hate what I have become

Take me home

Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer's hideaway
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world

My home was there 'n then
Those meadows of heaven
Adventure-filled days
One with every smiling face

Please, no more words
Thoughts from a severed head
No more praise
Tell me once my heart goes right

Take me home

Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer's hideaway
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world

"THE PACIFIC"
Sparkle my scenery
With turquoise waterfall
With beauty underneath
The Ever Free

Tuck me in beneath the blue
Beneath the pain, beneath the rain
Goodnight kiss for a child in time
Swaying blade my lullaby

On the shore we sat and hoped
Under the same pale moon
Whose guiding light chose you
Chose you all

"I'm afraid. I'm so afraid.
Being raped again, and again, and again
I know I will die alone.
But loved.

You live long enough to hear the sound of guns,
long enough to find yourself screaming every night,
long enough to see your friends betray you.

For years I've been strapped unto this altar.
Now I only have 3 minutes and counting.
I just wish the tide would catch me first and give me a death I always longed for ".

"DARK PASSION PLAY"
2nd robber to the right of Christ
Cut in half - infanticide
The world will rejoice today
As the crows feast on the rotting poet

Everyone must bury their own
No pack to bury the heart of stone
Now he's home in hell, serves him well
Slain by the bell, tolling for his farewell

The morning dawned, upon his altar
Remains of the dark passion play
Performed by his friends without shame
Spitting on his grave as they came

Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray to dreamer's hideaway
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Forgive me
I have but two faces
One for the world
One for God
Save me
I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world

"Today, in the year of our Lord 2005,
Tuomas was called from the cares of the world.
He stopped crying at the end of each beautiful day.
The music he wrote had too long been without silence.

He was found naked and dead,
With a smile in his face, a pen and 1000 pages of erased text."

Save me

"MOTHER & FATHER"
Be still, my son
You're home
Oh when did you become so cold?
The blade will keep on descending
All you need is to feel my love

Search for beauty, find your shore
Try to save them all, bleed no more
You have such oceans within
In the end
I will always love you

The beginning.

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Now is not the time to have problems with my parents. Not now. But right now I have the overwhelming need to GET AWAY, RUN AWAY, FLY AWAY. Or maybe it's the stress... but my parents certainly aren't helping.

I hate Christmas.

Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!


1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Well met! I'm Raevynn Allixa Akurei. Most call me Rae.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
21.

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
I like too much food to just pick one or two!

4. And your favorite drink?
Light Dragon Blood Wine. Tasty.

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
I'm married to Ike. It works.


6. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
I really like purple. Silver blue is nice too.

7. Who's your favorite author?
Whoever it was that wrote the story of Forbidden Magick.

8. Now what's your biggest fear?
Probably for Ike to be killed... if not that, for my previous lover to come back and try to kill Ike for me again... so pretty much Ike getting hurt.

9. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
I don't know of any. My father died the day I was born and my mother when I was nine, so it looks like they'd have to be older if I had one.

10. Who's your hero?
Haar for being able to take a nap in the middle of a battlefield XD

11. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
Nergal. He keeps on coming back and threatening my country.

12. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
I'm guessing that Haar would probably axe Nergal in the face ^.^

13. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Ashunera or my parents? I've already met Ashunera. I defeated Ashera and saved Yune. And my parents... slap my father. Protect my mother.

14. Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
I want to get to be as strong as Amon and Menardi are. I know I'm high up there but I can't stand have to be saved all the time.

15. What's your worst nightmare?
My ex coming back to kill my husband... didn't we talk about this already?

16. What's your lifelong dream?
Since I've already avenged my mother's death, probably to defend my country and the people I love. I want them to live in peace.

17. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
To be honest? I wouldn't want to live in peace... I would have to go somewhere there is conflict to keep myself fit and busy.

18. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
The courtyard of my castle. The sun always hits the trees, the flowers and the fountain just right. And when I feel peaceful, I go into the shade and take a nice cat nap on my orange catbed. ^.^

19. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Training and taking care of things in the court.

No, but i might be on my way there. I knew that engineering was academic suicide before I even applied but i never thought it would be like this. I really should be finishing my part of a group project due monday but my headache is making ti very hard to focus... and i am kind of going above and beyond the call of duty for this one anyway... the way it's set in my mind I plan to do the main body of the project all by myself. Go me.

I find myself entirely consumed with my studies and university life (I have met some great people that I can relate to academically, I had no idea how great it feels) with no time to work on anything creative. And no, when this semester is over and i have semester break, I won't have that much time either because I'm forcing myself to take an introductory course to C++ so i don't fail that course next semester. BUT! I promise that I will at the very least get the next chapter of my story done, in which Amon finally is developed as a character. Some events within the group have inspired me to make the characters even more embittered towards each other... it's kind of interesting.

I also realize, just my proofreading this, that my writing style really has matured over the past couple months, and that i really don't care about capital letters anymore. Go figure XD

So in short, I'm not dead yet, I do come on to check things but I don't write or post anything anymore, just too much work to do. But when I get a break I WILL work on that story... it is my way of getting rid of the emotional baggage i've been holding on to for the past three years. I didn't even think I had it anymore... apparently some stupid circumstances have made it come back.

Hugs and Kisses!

~§Black_Mage_Raevynn§

I couldn't find a mood emote for "Head About to Explode..."

Life is going strangely, and I would really love to just scream. But I'm normally too contained for that, and after I cried almost my entire physics class on Tuesday I've had enough emotional outbursts for a little while. There's just a lot of little things and a couple of big things that all add up, you know? So yeah. *sigh*

Drama fest in less than two months! High school over in about three! Yay. Then I can go into full "Lose my mother fucking stomach once and for all" mode.

~§B.M.R.§

So! What with the whole everybody being friends again thing Sacred Lie died. XD But that doesn't mean i don't want to draw everybody's characters. Even more do i want to put them on dA for all you guys to see. There's just one problem and that would be that i gave away a few of them. So here's a character list and the status on the picture:

Raevynn: Well she was the first one i did, i'm probably going to change it around now. Her pik was very story specific. Raevynn has and never will have red hair. She only has red hair because in my stories i make her a fusion of me and her.
Amon: Pretty much the same. We love the paintbrush XD
Shade/Morokai: Drawn, but given to him. XD I would love you if you would scan the picture and put it up, Nikki love. Please?
Sin: 0.o I drew her last year and now i can't find her. xEternalSinx, Do you have it somewhere?
Kyia: In progress. I was rally unhappy with the first one so i started over. I need to draw her clothes on ^.^ And then work shall be done with her.
Julian: Oh geez. Guys are so hard to draw. Especially Julian, seeing as I don't actually know what he looks like anymore XD
Hicaru: I don't know if I should draw her or not. Probably. Maybe. XP
Sepia: Well seeing as she's an art major in uni i'm really scared of drawing her XD Truly.

Did I forget anyone? Let me know!